Dreameryv2 December Post 2009 1) Man in the closet. 2) Fire, panic at Big Store. 3) Giant Elk at shoe store.

Dreameryv2 December 4, 2009 1) Man in the closet. 2) Fire, panic at Big Store. 3) Giant Elk at shoe store.

------------------------ Dream 1: There was a man who was hiding in backspace of my closet. [Somehow, it was that] We were to tun away together. We went down to the train depot and while we were waiting for our train, I ran into some of my girl friends. I tried to avoid them because I didn't want to see us. A police officer came by and looked around and passed on without incident. I feared I had been reported kidnapped. Our train to Omaha had already gone, so we decided to go to San Francisco (Hundreds of miles further.) When we got on the train and as the conductor neared to collect our tickets, my husband, Bill somehow appeared and wrote a check for both the man and me, and then left. We, (the Closet man and I) had taken a piece of luggage with us that was supposed to be worth $100. We also had brought some pieces of metal that were negotiable, which somehow in the hurry and anxiety involved; I forgot when we got on the train. On the train was a Negro man carrying musical equipment, seated near by. He gave the conductor cash for the fare in a friendly exchange. The conductor then took our check. I feared he might not. But he did. I was aware we had not done this smartly, and now had very little cash to go on. Dream 2. I recall that earlier the same night, I had had another dream. Something about panic when along with the smell of smoke, and a fire alarm ringing loudly. We were running out as part of the crowd escaping from this big store building. Somehow, I knew it was supposed be a Catholic Church. Dream 3. A few nights later. I dreamed that Bill and I was decorating a Christmas tree then we went shopping. However, not downtown as we ended up in a small town and in some shoe store. The clerk was having some problem with the little fitting bench that shoe-men sit on to help you find the correct fit. While I was participating in the fitting activity, there was a commotion outside. Bill in the meantime had gone elsewhere. The cause of all the excitement was a deer or elk- I don't know which it was-but it was huge I'd say 3 or 4 times larger than a regular elk. Suddenly my mother was standing beside me and she said she had never seen such a huge animal. When everything quieted down, I went to another larger store. I recognized that it was here the fire alarm had gone off. I have dreamt about this same department store before in several of my dreams. ----------------------------- Comment: At first reading you might read this a desire to run away with some romantic hunk, and that Bill coming from nowhere to pay for me to go, is that I think he'd be happy to see me go. This puzzles me as we have had a stable and mutually supportive relationship for two decades. A time spanning our daughter's growth to maturity and who finally did run off with some man, but even that was a couple years ago and has worked out well. I have come to enjoy her once a closet affair person as if my own son. I am not a very systematic self-analyst or dream analyst or specially gifted or I would have caught on to the fact that dream was about the different kinds of love that Bill and I have in respect to our daughter. Bill on the surface is a money watcher, checks every sales slip, reads every word. of every contract and always knows what he is talking about, in such matters. In the dream, is it that I am asking; would he whip out his checkbook and pay the freight for me to run off on a basis equal to our daughter? A clue is the negotiable metal I failed to bring on to the train. As I was so in such a twitter that I left it behind stupidity, a self punishment act and the panic anxiety then, that before reaching California we would be broke. Never would Bill let that happen to our daughter, and do I unconsciously fear that if it was me, he would get let me overextend and suffer. More questions here than answers. I do not systematically psychoanalyze but with this dream, I did my best to take an organized approach. First, I tried to see what could I extract from it using all the tools I have learned up to now. Starting with treating each element in it as a symbol by itself and trying to force everything into symbol logic. This provided some ideas to each element interesting but little in respect to any deeper meanings. I note, this method is not exactly free association but as close, as I seem able to go. I feel some satisfaction in the fact I am going somewhat more 'depth level' than ever before. After a time doing this, a detour of thinking took over, forcing me to test everything against what I had retained from my study of Dr. Phil, and L. Ron Hubbard, both of whom I consider my main mentors. With my mind in this focus set began, the questioning first with Dr. Phil's approach one of making self-inventory lists: Asking my self does any of my dream elements point to items on my list of the ten most significant events in your life? Wow, quite a bit here, even to black musician paying cash without complaint and no anxiety to get where he wanted to go. Since this list deals with my life events, I easily found several items on my Dr. Phil inventories that connected to associations from the dream content. I had the feeling that my awareness was growing some with this approach. Then the process seemed to run dry and I turned to L. Ron Hubbard's 'Self-Analysis' book, and his Hubbard inventory. That places you on a life tone scale. I recalled he was somewhat negative on the value of dream analysis, he suggested that, a more practical way was to follow your mind's time track from the present backward until all aberrations are detected, the effect they have on you recognized, and the original causative events recalled. When understood, these engrams lose their power over you and are re-filed in your memory bank as just normal memories. Consequently, you then have conscious command over them after a successful analysis. (I hope have this close to right. That's what I got from my study anyway.) The first thing I noticed my set of dream episodes had several events that were mixed or vague at to any firm place in time. I conclude that he was right, that for following your time track, dreams are not help much. What about aberrations? As I struggled with the elements, I began to see, vague hints of my aberrations as wife, mother, worker [here the escape desire for romance etc.] and my husband's. [ money/and a permissive/non-permissiveness ambivalence.] and in the last dream, my mother's aberration symbol [the giant elk]. So I conclude, L. Ron Hubbard is right about the lack of time track usefulness in any particular dream. However, that is not the same thing as saying they don't show in dreams.

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